Kama-Kama

I'm going to make a new account: RektheArtist and just post my life crap on there. xD
- Kama/Rek

No no. xD The astrik (sp?) symbols is some joke in this anime series and ah you'll just have to see it. >> Anyways, I actually do feel alot better than my past post. ^^ And now I'm excited for this weekend and next week...GOOD GOD IT'S A-KON 20!!!! 8U Man, I'm so excited and can't wait to see new costumes and new merchandise they have in their HUGE Dealers Room! <33333
It's a good thing Night (NightWarrior591 or just NightWarrior) got all her costumes done. >>' Anyways, here I am...sitting...watching Riley's (CanineHybrid) Ustream video....once I get my laptop I'll be doing my own videos and soon to reveal my next costume. 8> I geuss that's it for today. 8' Gewd Bai!
- Kama/Rek

Alright so I guess, there's some things that did happen to me over the last weekend like I just rwared in an angry post at a friend over some rp and now I feel just bad about it. Honestly I just wanna start over again (if you know what I mean) and just...become a better person rather than stay a whining, stupid person. So....I don't really know what to say on the fourms...I don't know if I should even apologize...I'm going to his Graduation party but yet I feel like I don't even want to go. Heck, my excitment for A-Kon has just dissapeared and changed into depression and worry. I'm worried about alot of stuff, like getting a instant 'no no' for a commission I wanted to ask this amazing artist when I head on over to A-Kon and I also had a horrible nightmare where I was with my pokemon group and everyone started to photograph and surround everyone but me and this other Glaceon fursuiter appears and her suit is BETTER than mine and I just stand there watching my group get attention and I go over to a wall take off my mask and drown in self pity. ...sad dream isn't it? and I'm worried but now it's turned into fear, about my art college actually. I'm scared about paying off my student loan, getting a job, and what's going to happen to me in the future. I'm also worried about my relationship with my friends. Sure...tell me to go to a therapist, but I refuse. Oh plz, I rather talk to someone I know rather than a stranger who just nods their head and asks the same damn question over and over again "And how does that make you feel? 8) " ARG!!!! DX Honestly...right now I feel lost and confused plus look at me...I'm still drowning in self pity and at the same time, I'm trying to get myself up on my own feet. I do think I need help...I just don't want to find it out in public plus my mom will get 'suspicious'. >_>' Wow...I sure am putting alot of stress on myself. lD
Anyways, tommorow morning I have to get up at 6:30 am to get ready and drive up (or down whatever you call it) with my mom to Denver and go to AIC for my appointment and talk about Financial Aid and I am kinda nervous. Dx Makes me feel sick just thinking about it....*groans*
So...I geuss thats it.
- Kama/Rek

So....I'm actually REALLY happy because here I am at the libary and geuss what? YOUTUBE IS FINALLY LOADING!!!!! It's been several years since they've got it up and running! So now I can go and watch my friend's youtube videos on their costume updates!
Anyways, A-Kon 20 is coming up...week after next week (SWEETRAPTORJESUSHURRYUPYOUGUYS! D8) and I have other stuff to do during next week but then again, I still have time to do something. So...I made a Samurai Jack hat....and I am VERY proud of myself but there's just one small problem...it's small. xD In conclusion, I'm going to have to redo the hat (maybe give my old one to someone with a smaller head. 8' ) so that it can fit my head and someone else's head if they want to wear it for awhile, during the week and um...YEA! So...costume costume updates. Unfortantly, I feel very bad about my Glaceon costume. ¬_¬' It doesn't look very good and worst, it's jaw is VERY VERY UGLY. Dx And...and...I'm not fuzzy...D8 *angry shake fist* CURSE MYSELF FOR DOING THIS SO DAMN FAST! >_<  No no, I will eventually redo it and it will look MUCH MUCH better. I just wish I had some more time to redo the ENTIRE costume before A-Kon. @_@ Though...if I just stick with the group, people won't hopefully notice all the god forsaken hotglue gun crap I did. Dx
On the other hand...ENDLING IS COMING TO A-KON!!!! EEEEEEEEEEE!!!! THEN I CAN FINALLY COMMISSON that BOY and be a SUPER HAPPY CAMPER. Hmmmm...well, I geuss that's it. 8' I have to get going anyways to Target and the post office. Target...well...I REALLY REALLY need new sunglasses. My school bag crushed my old ones...D8 And for the post office...8' I have to by them 2 Cent stamps for mah mum. 
So long and have a great day.
- Kama/Rek 

Oh man! I can't belive it! Unknown-Person (http://unknown-person.deviantart.com) has replied back to my note! *squeals with joy* Honestly I feel so HONORED to get his reply back! <33333 Ok and now I will stop blabbering on about him. lD
- Kama/Rek

Alright, lets start off with the good news:
First off, today is my LAST DAY at PPCC!!! Well...I have to go back tommorow to pick up some of my finished glazed peices in the kiln. Dx But...I'm out of that HORRIBLE school!!!

Second...which is the bad news:
Yes...I know I'm VERY impatient, but I've commissioned Endling (http://endling.deviantart.com) or I've asked to commission him, hopefully during A-Kon 20 in person, but...but...he hasn't replied back in 2 weeks! Ha, maybe he's just SUPER busy...then again he has been coming back and forth on DA to submit stuff and favorite stuff...hmmm...*shifty eyes* Well...I hope he replies back REALLY REALLY soon, preferbally, before A-Kon. ^^'
- Kama/Rek~<3

wow....over 3 months without my own computer...ha! I'm about to snap...I mean seriously...D8 I havn't done digital arts and worse...animations for so looooong!!! DX though...>3> I have to say that I've improved over the roof on pencil drawings (though still working on how to do shading with my pen) and I've been obessing over Endling's (http://endling.deviantart.com seriously go check out his works...) EndZone series that involved several awsome artists and Law of Talos, which I think was also by Endling too. But I've been keeping my eyes on Unknown-Person (http://unknown-person.deviantart.com) and by the heavens HE DOES AMAZING ANIMATIONS! 8D Oh how I do worship him indeed! but one day I do hope to surpass him in 2-D animation...B3 than I SHALL BE THE VICTOR!!! >w<
Lets see...A-Kon 20! I'm so excited! 8D It's this month and I'm going with Night (NightWarrior or TwilightWolf sp? ) Ani (Animeg or StarMuttAni), Riley (CanineHybrid), Draga (Legna03) and a few other people. :3
Geuss that's that. 8'
- Kama

Finals Finals! ...well...it's not that bad....-3- I'm sure I passed my writing final but the first half of my Reading final, I totally failed. 8D But that's ok, who needs reading in their future animation life anyways? xD As you can see, I updated some stuff on my LJ account and I'm overall happy with it but I'm still figuring out how to do my background for my LJ profile...)8 And I've been listeing to this song for over 10 times! : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJzWGkgFcTU&feature=channel_page It's so damn catchy...D8 And I love the animation...<333 The good old cartoon style...l3
I think that's that. Just one more week for me then off to an AWSOME summer vacation!
- Kama/Rek

So yea....I watched this movie and at first I thought it was really cute and then it just kinda turned borning like hell then at the very end, I cried so badly. )8 I think that is now my top saddest movie I've EVER seen. ;A; (Warning: Don't read this if you still wanna watch the movie. lD )
At the end of the movie, the poor dog ends up dying of old age and that was the first time I had to see a actual dog get injected with that sleeping/killing stuff (can't remember what it's called. >>' ) and I couldn't help crying and sniffling since the owner just held Marley as he died painlessly and slowly....*sadface* So, I cried for like...literally 5 whole minutes after the movie was over and my mom just looked at me and said, "....why are you crying?"

Me: ....Becaaaause the dog died.....)))))8

Mom: Oh well all dogs and pets gotta eventually go one day and same goes for old people. 8))))

Me: ....(womanyournothelpingatall! D8<) oh okies....¬_¬' *shuffles onto bed*

So yea...*runs off*
- Kama

Curse you COLORADO WEATHER! >8U Honestly, could the weather just...just...make up it's mind?! Seriously, ¬_¬' it snowed and RAINED on Sunday and now it's gonna rain sometime this week, hahaha...wait till the weather man is wrong and there is sunshine instead. lD ok ok moving on. I have to say that I do feel MUCH better than before though there are some things on my mind nothing depressing though. >> Anyways, I think I'm going back to being a Therian researcher. It'll defently help me understand therians or weres or otherkins better. Aaaand my stalker is on msn talking to me. lD Sorry Sorry. ^^' Thinking that becoming a researcher and observer for therians does in fact makes me feel more closer and more comfortable.
Alright then, well, I HAD to redo my Glaceon paws. Dx I just...didn't really like how they were NOT the same material as my feet and lucky me, I had JUST BARELY enough for both hands. xD' so, now I think their MUCH better than my last ones and to top it off, I even hand sewed them since I don't really quite know how to set up the sewing machine just yet. Though I do find hand sewing can be easier...then again it can be a pain to try and sew through thick fabric. ^^' I know I HAVE to redo my Glaceon suit... ._.' I am VERY proud of myself the fact that I did a decent job for my very first suit ever. lD But I think I can do better, besides, I was kinda forced to use hot glue gun crap to do my entire mask...HURRAY FOR THE INVENTION OF THE HOT GLUE GUN! 8D Without it, I don't know what us costume making people would do!
Next...hmmm....honestly...I think I've been playing too much Kingdom Hearts 2... >___________________>' But...you have to admit that it is a pretty addicting game. <8) And of course I still need to get my Okami game back from Thrax. l3
Mmmm....geuss that's it for now. >>' Still, I think I need to start drawing more and more again. Wish my laptop didn't die on me last year, it's kinda...difficult to keep up with digital drawings yet alone it's sorta a bad start if I ever wanna become a 2-D animator. *shifty eyes*
- Kama